Howdy ya'll. I feel accomplished. I actually got to doing what I've been telling myself to do.. I drew well painted. But who cares about the technicalities. Its well odd. I've never really done stuff like this before but I mean theres a first time for everything. If I figure out how to work my scanner I'll put it up here. ITs not much.. but all I care about is that I finally got to painting. We also got the book 12 sharp! whcih i've been waiting for since the day it came out on june 20. This blog is gonna be just kinda there. Because My brains quite scattered and censored. So i'm all like -_-. I don't wan tto go to orientation alone.. well actually with family. I. Hate. It. They feel the need to drop by to all the teachers as if they are gonna be able to remember anything about me out of like hundreds of students honestly. They. Don't. Care. Ugh. Being depressed stinks. I'm so bloody sick of it. And yesterday I lost my 2 page summer reading worksheet. So I'm fucking screwed. I mean if we even find away to get another one. Then I'll probably have to reread the book cause I can't remember all those specifics. I. Hate. Life. I mean it was days like that ((the whole summer work thing just triggered all the annoying pain/depressing emotiony shit)) that my thoughts are all screwy and borderline suicidal. But lucky for me I will never end this pain b/c death is just to scary. Its pretty muych my greatest fear and thinking about dying one day makes me scared and naseaus ((Sp?)). But on a bit happier note I went to good will and bot a pair of sorta shiny pants that actually fit! Finally I don't have to wear the same pair because i'm to fat to fit anything else.. I also bought a skirt ((Causae i gotta put those fishnets to use)) and this black and white striped tank topish thing. Wahoo for goodwill type stores. So yeah. Thats sorta life in I guess I nutshell. But I don't liek that because it reminds me of a nut house ((which I'm sure to end up in. I think that idea puts a smile on my family's face)) so I guess thats sorta my life in a Coconut becuase they are just so much more friendly.
"Thats because your not as smart as us morons"
