Listen to the Beat

Oh South Harmon Institute of Technology. How you are so completely and utterly the college for me. The me who wishes she had a crystal ball to tell me the future or someone to tell me what to do with my life. Bedsides I want to be a S.H.I.T head.

Yeah, well Dad and I went to see "accepted". It s a good movie. I felt like an only child seeing it by myself with just dad. He's fun to go to the movies with. He doesn't lean over halfway through and go "Is that the guy from Dodgeball?" and He doesn't insist on getting a tub of popcorn and a mondo thing of diet coke. Its a simple sit your ass down and watch the damn movie and laugh kinda deal. A way a movie should be. And he and I basically end up with the same opinion of the movie whereas when I go with some of my friends....well thats a different post. It feels like fall up here and its wonderful.
There was no sun and it drizzled rain. Mom hated it. I was in love I spent most of the rest of the day outside. Well til dark. Then we lit the fireplace, I burned my finger playing with the fire, then proceeded to watch Aquamarine, good movie...but it needs a new ending and Just My Luck,very good movie, get ahold of the DVD somehow and watch it.

my life is just centered around movies. ehh its better than something stupid...see: football.

School is getting closer and closer and next weekend is Taking Back Sunday/My Chemical Romance show. I can't wait. Then next shall be Bamboozle 2007. I'm not even sure whose playing that but I know I'm going. and this year I'll talk my dad into going both days because its a hell of a lot more fun.

My family is saying I swear to much. Thoughts?
Do I fucking swear the shit outta things?

hehe..no but really do i?

0 Listen @ 10:16 PM

So the game was fun As always it gives me an extreme rush of energy and perkiness and well everything else. Unfortunately it decided to rain. So EVERYONE had to wear ponchos. Big white Klu Klux Klan ponchos. Let me tell you something about ponchos. I hate them. Its like wearing a portable oven. It was getting on my nerves. And I couldn't properly do stand dances with it cause it kept screwing up my arms and hands. Well it did stop raining by the end of the 1rst quarter and boy did i fling that thing off. ((and scream I'M FREE!!...)) I was extremely hyper and felt the urge to boogie down. And sence the band doens't constantly play songs I was singing to myself and rocking out. Which Anthony sortaish made fun of me about but oh well. So during the 2nd quarter we head out to practice. Which was right infront of the little walkway heading from the home side to the concessions to the visitor side. So there were a group of people just leaning on the fence watching the game. And when we walked over to our litle place to practice they hollered at us. "You guys are hot! Can I get your numbers?!" Odd. Well because people are weird and feel the need to make fools of them self. Every person that walked by screamed something to the extent of "We are the Panthers!" or "Go Pathers!" ((thats their team)) Its just annoying. So then we head to the back of the field and get in a line so that we can go to our spots as soon the football players clear out. One of the football players said hey to me. ((a guy from spanish class who apparently recognized me.)) And the cheerleaders entusiastically complimented our outfits.Then we performed. And they actually clapped for us! ~gasp~ ((we expected booing or nothing at all))That was fun.Then off to thrid quarter break which was huge relief cause i was about to pee on myself. How attractive right? So I'm following three guard peeps down the walkway and this massive string of black dudes ((aka dreads, cornrows, xxxxxxxxl clothes)) And as they passed us they were going "sexy sexy sexy" And someone told me that as they walked by someone else they said "too fat" which is very rude and mean. So I was flying away from my buddies ((..stupid me always use the buddy system!!!)) to the bathroom and when i come out. I am surrounded in sea of blue ((aka band kids)). So I lean against the wall next to the bathroom ((cause yes. Only cool peolpe hang by the bathroom)) hoping that I'll see someone I know. Instead I see two guys walk by saying "HEY CUTIE!!!" I barely even cracked a smile ((but i guess the dude saw it)) And off he goes saying to me "I made you smile! You know I made you smile!" So I smiled. So i was still all lonely but thankfully Anthony came over and talked to me. YAY. Eventually we found peoples..and he just disapeared. And I got a lollipo stuck in my shirt! I love lollipops. So as I'm walking back to visitor side i run into anthony again. Who gets to laugh at my prediciment ((aka annoying people)) So wesa walkign and some kid that was maybe 10 yrs old walks up to me and crumps/hiphop hip gyrating thing right next to me.. Two inches closer and I woulda been humped.. That was just well odd. We keep going and we walk by another group of black dudes and they start calling out "Oh yeah I like the girl! Keep the girl!" Just strange. Anyway after alot of dancing , screaming, cheering and perkiness we go home. Onto our bus that is the opposite of crowded. I mean 7 empty seats. and then like 6 seats with only one person. That was fun. I got a back massage ((thank you Julian and your magic hands)) and then slept on a seat. Whch meant I forgot to call mum when we were getting close. So i called after we had met in the chorus room, cleaned up and had been dismissed. Then I get to call her. Then I have to call dad and ask how far away he his... Well lets just say these 2 things. 1)the Band Director left before me ((and he's supposed to wait till all the kids are gone)) and 2) I was the last person there. I got home at like 12:30 am...ugh So i woke up in the morning stumbled into kitchen realized there was no milk to eat breakfast with and sat in the chair. Where i fell asleep and woke up every 15 minutes for 2 hours. I watched West Side Story which put me in a depressed mood so I layed on the chair again and thought and thought and daydreamed and imagined. And here I am, watching the rest of Cheetah Girls 2 and typing. Wowza this is a long one. And the first one in a long time.

"You know, these clothes do not flatter you at all. It should be a dress or nothing. I happen to have no dress in my cabin"

2 Listen @ 7:41 PM

okay so all my degrassi lovers this is my anology. theres an episode where toby likes spinners new stepsister and they start dating. well toby is always around her and wont leave her alone and basically goes out of his way to freak her out without meaning to. so um. heres my situation. Kevin Maggio is my shadow. he's completely ALWAYS in my bubble. if i look behind me there he is. or he'll sneak up on me and bear hug me or like get way too close for comfort. its starting to freak me out. i dont rememebr him EVER being that personal around me.

((i love how i relate Degrassi to my everyday life))

a little birdy told me i should post my songs on here.

heres one.

"hello"

not like the other guys
different from the rest
is he the best
if he looks at me one more time, i might just die

and i dont really know
what im saying anymore
is this a dream
it must be
i cant feel anything
i cant feel anything
when u say hello to me

daydreams and doodles
with hearts around your name
i doubt you feel the same
love is just a game

and i dont really know
what im saying anymore
is this a dream
it must be
i cant feel anything
i cant feel anything
when u say hello to me

you make me feel ontop of the world
dont bring me down
its all i want to do
to hear u say "i love you too"

and i dont really know
what im saying anymore
is this a dream
it must be
i cant feel anything
i cant feel anything
when u say hello to me

and i dont really know
what im saying anymore
is this a dream
it must be
i cant feel anything
i cant feel anything
when u say hello to me

and i dont really know
what im saying anymore
is this a dream
it must be
i cant feel anything
i cant feel anything
when u say hello to me

"getting old"

how is it possible
that you cant trust anyone anymore
stop your stupid drama
stop your stupid lies
your eyes are ice cold and this is getting old

so what
you dont like me, i never liked you
i think i get it now so let me be
dont you see
im just waiting for you to shut up
about how im such a slut

how is it possible
that you cant trust anyone anymore
stop your stupid drama
stop your stupid lies
your eyes are ice cold and this is getting old

the funny thing is
i thought you wear my friend
back then i was so naive
before i learned u like
to talk trash about me

how is it possible
that you cant trust anyone anymore
stop your stupid drama
stop your stupid lies
your eyes are ice cold and this is getting old
how is it possible
that you cant trust anyone anymore
stop your stupid drama
stop your stupid lies
your eyes are ice cold and this is getting old

"chance year"
a year
i waited a year
you had a year to make your move
you had a year tobe with me
you had a year full of chances that you never took

were my tears not enough for you
well now the tears are gone
along with my heartache
replaced with him

the roles have reversed it seems
you are the one cryingn inside
my heart isnt bursting at the seams
b/c someone else sewed it back together

were my tears not enough for you
well now the tears are gone
along with my heartache
replaced with him

the year is now over
i am now with him
please dont look sad
when i turn away
you lost ur year of chances
like it
im gone too

oksy i g2g

0 Listen @ 2:56 PM

it just rained.
rain rain go away. come again another day.

dont give me any flame comments or anything about what im about to say. Hair is very important on guys. but now i know that i dont really "like like" all those guys. I just like to look at thier hair. and when they dont have awesome hair and i still kinda like them i know its for real. maybe thats the shallow side of me coming out.

am i annoying? boring? strange? wierd? too blonde? b/c someone told me that the other day. and i know i can be annoying but why would someone say that.

eng.

ugh. i agree with ariel. im beginning to hate the teachers perkiness. now she is annoying. always so happy. its like woman! grammer and order arent as cool as u think!

psy.

talked about dreams. i felt like dreaming. this is why u dont bring pillows to school.

span.

i invented spanish hangman.

math.

the guy i liked got switched out so i dont like it anymore. i have one friend in that class now.

history.

always boring. somehow i have an a

science.

i got in trouble for leaving class so much for going to the bathroom. im sry if i cant control my bladder organs. whatever. i can only leave twice a week.

home- it rained on the way home. so i called mrs. ausley and she picked me up.

im bored. im gunna RP.

1 Listen @ 4:15 PM

Poster: Sarah
Mood: Confuzzled
Music: Number One - Hazel FERNANDES
Movie: Silent Hill
Book: Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories

Question:
Is it wrong that i play the first mission of a game over and over again just so i can see the main character running around shirtless?

Answer:
For the three people who have any idea what i'm talkng about, no you are not alone. Everybody else... yeah, shut up.

So i'm sitting here, having just got my fill of my favorite shirtless bishounen (believe you me, i'd have many more if any of them actually went without a top every once and a while), and i'm about to pop in Dirge of Cerberus to see if i can continue from my last save point, when Fatal Frame III: The Tormented catches my eye.

i have yet to beat Reika, almighty master of hide and seek.

Reika has one of the coolest boss battles i've ever seen, not nearly as fun as beating up Organization XIII, but no boss battle will ever give me as much pleasure as beating the Gambler of Fate for all the times he turned me into a freakin DICE or will there ever be a boss i am so adimate about defeating as Mansex the Gay Zebra for almost killing Riku. Twice. Now, i am frustrated. Our tattooed priestess keeps killing me- ne, hugging me- which she is really really good at. i'm tempted to ask: is there anything she can't do?

She's already the most amazing hide and go seeker i have ever faced, but almighty hawk-assasin-thing??

WHERE WILL IT END?

Oh Riku, i miss you so much right now... Reeve looks like the Kusabi and it confuses me so T,T

♥ [Sarah] ♥

2 Listen @ 8:28 PM

So today was the same old song and dance. Got up, did the stuff that I had to do, then came home and did the stuff that I have to do here. Exciting eh? (That's a rhetorical question, don't answer it) The good thing is that I got to go to the library and give back Catch-22. It's not as funny as I figured it would be... I mean there were the occasional "Haha, that was kinda funny..." moments, but other than that, the book sorta fell flat.
But then again I didn't bother to read past page 56...>_<>A Great and Terrible Beauty and I like it a heck of alot better than Catch-22. To make a good week even better, Ali said that she'd let me borrow Twilight, and knowing how fast of a reader she is, I should be getting it within the next week or so. I just hope things continue to go as well as they have been lately....My grade in math is going up, I haven't had a mood swing in a while, and although my classes are hard, I actually like them. Maybe it's because the teachers are more tolerable this year, or I'm maturing, or both (very unlikely) but.... something's definitely different this year. Not as much tension, I guess. I dunno, but things have been going pretty well, at least in my point of view.
Just watch me hit rock bottom by Christmas.....XD

And still I feel like a prisoner

Trapped inside this broken world

While I'm playing the victim again

Running in circles

To me it's all the same

And though nothing's gonna change

StillI hope someday you have it all

2 Listen @ 4:08 PM

"Come on Bring it.
Oh I'm ready for it.
Come on Bring it!
Oh so Kiss me goodbye...
I don't think I'm going to make it out alive
So kiss me goodbye
I can see the venom in their eyes"
((From Snakes on a Plane's soundtrack))
If you haven't seen Snakes on a Plane yet. Go see it. NOW! Skip school and go. Not like you do anything useful there. Well you might, however the majority don't. And you should be happy that you can make use out of your (Nearly) 5 hours stuck in the same building.

Enough of that. We had the block party on Saturday. Oh yea 3 hours of sitting around while the dads drink beers and discuss backyards,sports and whatever else. The moms talk about their kids and compare them to one another.
Example-
"Megan is going to a performing arts school this year"
"Jessica is going to Penn State this year"
"Megan's going to be going to a school in Florida once she graduates"
Megan thinks "when can I leave, where the hell did Lauren go? She left me here, Bitch....oh there she is...with a pepsi and an iced tea....I love her sometimes"
Meanwhile all of the good kids are playing volleyball or football or whatever. Lauren and I were not one of those kids. We wouldn't even touch any of the food that wasn't from a bag. That mainly only left the tosistos. She and I left 30 minutes in the party as soon as we left a raindrop. It only drizzled but it was a good excuse as any we could have wanted. We watched The Girl Next Door and Say Anything.

Then on Sunday, I got off my artsy fartsy ass and we went to the Allentown Art Muesem (I bet I spelled that wrong...oh well you'll figure it out) and viewed a bunch of Andy Warhol prints. They were really nifty and I got this Andy Warhol Marilyn Monroe print purse. Then yesterday when Lauren and I were at Hot Topic, we saw similar bags there cheaper. It made me want to try and return it and save myself 15 bucks. ugh.
yeah but that's all we did yesterday...shop...again. I'm not complaining. I could live in a mall just shopping forever.
School starts next week. I hadn't even realised that until Dad brought it up. Wow. I have so many things I have yet to do.
Riley is being a little divo. He keeps insisting that I wake up each time he has to go to the basement to use the litterbox and I must carry him. I wake up every 2 hours throughout the night to make sure I haven't rolled on him and killed him. Stupid cat. He brings out the maternalness in me.

Too bad I don't care for Samantha like I do Riley. She's become so annoying and really a mean kid. I tried to talk to her last night and the whole time I got this:
"I really wish you would leave, you're really stupid and I don't like to talk to you. You're mean to me and I hate you. I know maybe my wish box will make you leave *goes and gets that stupid wishbox off the window sill*"
I eventually left but I doubt it helped that as I left I took the box and threw it at the wall so that it broke.

I reccomend you lean forward and grab onto your ankles
and Kiss your ass goodbye

1 Listen @ 9:46 AM