Listen to the Beat

Maybe they were right when they said that starting the day off with exercise makes it a good day. (I think it was something like that). I woke up around 8 and went running. Yes r-u-n-n-i-n-g, for a good hour and a half too.

And what conclusion did I come to after all this. Hills are murder.

Damn the hills. And the stupid mountain humidity.

So by the time I got all this done and by the time I quit watching re-runs of the Hills on MTV as soon as I got home, it was nearing 11 and Amanda's party was at 12.
So I hop in the shower, blowdry my hair, and get ready then my dad yells at me to hurry up so I didnt have time to straighten my hair. =(.
Yeah so then we go and mom dropped me off though she was so worried I'd end up addicted to crack by the end of the night.
Anyways so I was the first person there and I helped them all finish decorating the pavilion. We're really bad at streamers. Then more of her family showed up. Then Brittany came. We gabbed for a bit then it rained cats and dogs. We called Ashli but smart lil ol me hadn't charged her phone so it was messing up from lack of juice. I could barely hear her but I got out that she'd be there as soon as possible. Then Lea came. After a bit, we began a water fight.
People I didn't even know thought that it was more fun to drench me than anyone else it seems. But it was so much fun besides after the rain ended, it got friggin' hot. Ashli came a lot later after the water fight and 2 hamburgers later and countless Icee's. It was good seeing her again. We ended up on the swings for almost an hour when I got off my legs had the same feeling you get after being on a trendmill. We ate cake and made plans to go thrift shopping in Bethlehem.
I've also made a mid-year resolution to call people. I know I've said that before but this time I mean it. I swear on.....on..Quizilla. If I don't call people back or just call them. I shall delete my Quizilla account. (Though this works out either way because I am really getting bored of fanfictions anyways--not the point though).

Then mom came to pick me up and we went to...wait for it...Burger King.
She told me some things that I thought were really interesting but I shall save them for tomorrow since Dad wants me to go to bed.

Life's a stage. It's time to perform.

0 Listen @ 9:03 PM

Finally!!! After spending practically Forever wondering why people say that the devils number is 666 though absolutely no one could tell me EXACTLY why. So i searched and I searched throughout the interent which lead me through a search of the bible which is probably one of the hardest things to look for something in. I'm looking in the index and all the titles are arranged like 3 different ways and then I'm looking for a page number and finally after searching through like 3 bibles i figure out that there are TWO pages of the same number so I look at both of them.. Then I have to find chapters and sections and ugh. I must say it is bloody hard trying to find something in the bible unless you know how I guess. Anyway i'm proud of myself for finding it out so here is the quote.

"Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast:for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six."

yeah even the italics are in the book. So thats what it says the beast ((aka. the devil i guess)) has a number and it is also the number of a human ((which confuses me)) and the number is 666 ((cause 3 score is 60..learned that from "4 score and seven years ago")) so There ya go . If you cared at all... ((which you probably didn't)) but i had to have someone to celebrate that i found it with. Cause I go screaming to hayleys room I found it!!! and after telling her that I found why 666 is the devils number she starts screaming Be GONE Be GONE!!! over and over again untill i leave then yells out I LOVE YOU!!!...ugh..If she had holy water I'm sure she would have opened the door and poured it on me..ugh.. Be gone?! Anyway rock on and peaceage out. And hopefully i can fit into my pants by the 4th.

1 Listen @ 5:07 PM

I'm listening to Gym Class Heroes' "Clothes Off" with Patrick Stump and resisting the urge to get up and dance. Good song. (Lately its anything from Fueled By Ramen that I am just in love with).

I dub Fueled By Ramen my favorite label.

Anyways so Mum, lauren and Samantha are at Dorney at this little water park. However I am staying home for the following reasons:
1.Me+Swimsuit=fuck no.
2.Why ruin my pale skin tone by getting a sunburn or worse...a tan!
3.I GET TO VACCUM.

No one should trust me with a vaccum anymore. I have too much fun. We just got back from Lancaster (because my mother just HAD to look for special patio furniture) and I get instructed to vaccum the living room. Oh my god. Maybe its all the Good Housekeeping magazines I read at my mum's friend's house but I had so much fun.
Nevermind the fact that I probably destroyed the vaccum cleaner because I don't look and see what it is I am sucking up. I was having the thing pick up nails (we're remodeling the living room, so my mom won't hate the house so much, so yeah there's junk all over) and the little Barbie shoes that were missing their mates anyways.
Who. Cares. It. Was. Fun.
My next victims are the stairs, Samantha's room and the office.

What so enough about my new found love for cleaning. So Lancaster. Wasn't as fun as it was when we went before. Maybe it was because I only was hearing my mom talk on and on about patio furniture that she saw on some morning show and she didn't like the colours and then she asked the amish guy if he could make it in pink.
Pink patio furniture. The woman needs to realise. WE. AREN'T. IN. FLORIDA! She can't do that kind of thing here. Especially when we live in a place where the main colors are brown, golden brown, beige, off-white.
Besides that. Personally I think it'd be tacky.
Samantha was funny. While mum haggled. The nice amish lady invited Lauren, Sam and I inside for cookies and milk (Straight from the cow...ickk can you imagine how much puss was in that) The cookies were good but I didn't touch the milk. Anyways my point. The whole time samantha kept asking them where the TV was? Where was the computer? Why is the bathroom outside? along with various questions about how they entertain themselves?
My favorite was if they used toilet paper. The woman said her family did but some of the other neighbors dont.

But yeah. Tomorrow is Amander's shin dig. People keep e-mailing me telling me "We need to get together and do something". I'm guessing they want ME to come up with whatever it is to do. Personally I'd much rather be a hermit and reemerge in the school year.
I think I'm missing that little teenage gene where you're supposed to always be on the phone,love shopping for clothes, hang out with friends and look forward to driving.
Oh yeah and date.
I swear guys are one of the last things on my mind. I can't stand the way girls get once they get into the whole dating game. It's repulsive. Maybe I'm only this way because the last 3 (well 4 if you include jake but I don't because that was like what a day?) relationships ended badly thanks to yours truely. I don't remember guys down there really being as clinging as they are here either. But whatever as for the driving thing to, I am scared shitless to even attempt driving. Dad was going to teach me but we got out of the driveway and I freaked myself out that I was going to roll us off the road and we'd tumble down and be incinerated. But hey, Opa's getting me a car in December.

Which lauren hates me for. Though when I do permit myself to get into the drivers seat and not freak the fuck out about killing myself, I'll end up driving her ass and samanthas ass around. Most likely samantha's to ballet, cheerleading, soccer and girl scouts. For a 6 yr old she's busy.

Ah and mum has enrolled me in guitar lessons.
So yeah, maybe I'll quit bitching and learn to like it.

1 Listen @ 1:10 PM

every girl in my youth group malkes all these sexual comments to me about how i want to get wet and refering to me as a dog and talkign trash about me. i cant stand it! i mean just b/c im tight with all the guys doesnt mean im easy! i know i shouldnt let it get to me but even the guys do it. and it makes me feel like everyones against me. and ive felt like that way too many times. i didnt liek it when stephanie was like that or when ashely was. and i know that certain ppl will read this and i really didnt like what happened in 7th grade. i hated it. in 6th grade i cried every day b/c the only friends that were ever nivce to me steph made me not be friends with them. it just really gets to me now. i keep trying to say i dont care but i do b/c i cant rsut anybody with anything anymore. the only person i really trusted was megan and shes not even here anymore. i go through hell with those girls and then moving to fl and everyone being against me again and really i was just trying to change myself b/c i didnt want to be that girl again. but i guess u cant hide from who u are. 8th grade was ao wonderful and then BOOM. hell hath no fury. became the worst three years of my life. OH and elementary school wasnt so bad but i was an outcast. everybody just didnt like me. i dont know why. i dodnt know why that had to happen. why its still happening! it just hurt me. this year was basically a year of healing and i cried so much. but seriosuly i was so tramatized by those girls that i havent healed form it. and when i dated alex. all of you (in BT) were so against him. and had so much negative stuff to say about me and him EVEN AFTER I BORKE IT OFF. i mean what was with that!and about that. alex was into some stuff i was into and just b/c he was lazy and wasnt up to ur standards didnt mean i couldnt like him. i still dont know why kauany kicked me. more than once. but off of alex.

somtimes. i still kinda wish i was in PA. with stephanie and ashley. stephanie had control over me and i was nothing. she'd never have my back. always telling em what to do. and id do it. nice one second and then she hated me. ashley was my best and only friend since 3rd grade and stephasnie cam in and stole her and it was the wrost year of my life. stephanie was one u couldnt trust. i wasnt safe. i could even talk to her about it without it being turned against me. and i seriously think it would have been even worse if i diodnt have music, art or drama. id be worse off.

i thought i could put them and PA behind me. 7th grade and that stuff behind me, the oyster shucker and that darned CW story behind me. but i cant. sometimes i think i dont want to.idk what i want. GOD i hate florida. i just want to go home. i just want my old room back and my house and tubu and whitefoot and my old summers and 4ths of julys and my old life back. i miss it so so so so much.i just miss everything. thats waht it boils down to. im grieveing it. so terribly that its too much. u know me. i cant let go of stuff and it adds up. its not about grudges or anything i just dont want to let go. god i need to stop crying. i need a break.

im out
byeas

3 Listen @ 8:57 PM

Okies I need ya'lls help. Whcih one is better the black and white or pinkish thing. i like the black and white but I would like some imput. Also can you read the second one at all?

0 Listen @ 1:18 PM

"so you say'n you never meant to be that way right / you asked me to see you in a differnt light / but are your problems darkness / your heart is the coldest i ever touched / freezer burn from the touch / oh the grip that i had for ya slipped, tripped, on this 86 / started treat'n me like shit / said i was your medicine but, / ice cube, frost bite, wintering, your colder than any of them"

~Unknown female rapper, Crossfade's Cold HipHop Remix

And so the big day has arrived, around noon-ish we're leaving for Baltimore. Only now we have an extra seat in our already filled to capacity van.

Maggie's coming.

AHH MOTHERLAND!!! (okay, so i'm usually more intelligant when i write entries but my mind is offically blown at this point. My icon can vouch for me.)

Sarah doesn't like shopping, but mom dragged me a long anyway. Our original target was just a trip to Wally World to look around. But we get lost there to easily, so we side tracked to Payless for shoe shopping. The stores playlist was a lot of those old pop singles, all clean lyrics and no rap which was alright. N*sync's Dirty Pop started playing and all bets were off- mom and me started dancing. Except she was the only one caught on camera.

The boxes at Payless are so prettyful. i got a pair of cute little blue things; think sandles, on steroids.

And then we went to Wal*Mart and everything was right with the world.

My myspace is filled with so much random crap its shameful. Here's a new one; you know your old when you don't have to lie about your age to get your profile to stop being private.

Probably won't update much while i'm in Baltimore if at all, but i'll take lots of pictures! (Cause Sarah likes taking pictures with her phone)!

♥[Sarah] ♥

0 Listen @ 8:32 AM

For some reason or another, I really like that picture. There's just something about it.....

I call dibs on drawing it. =P
Today, I found out that the impossible exists: That people can be loud and obnoxious at 9:30 at night. At least i got to go places prior to being stuck with a batch of idiots. And I got a penguin. A stuffed one. Yay! I wish I could have a real penguin... It'd be my best friend. Well maybe not, but it'd be wickedly sweet to have a penguin for a pet. It'd be a heck of alot better than being around other people.
Quizilla's starting to annoy me. Out of nowhere, these really stupid quizzes that go along the lines of "Your Reputation At Hogwarts" have popped up. It annoys me that these worthless quizzes show up under the most popular or highest rated categories. Why!?!?!??! That doesn't make any sense at all. But then again, there are many things in life that don't make sense. Like why in that one episode of Danny Phantom they made Danny have a mullet but then they took it away. I liked Mullet Danny, I thought it looked great on him. Unlike most dudes, he can actually pull it off. But no....They just had to take it away.
Sometimes I wish I could yell at life, ya know? And then afterwards have a nice dinner to settle everything and to make sure that everything would go smoothly. No speed bumbs, no pot holes, just a nice smooth road. And then maybe life wouldn't suck so much when we grow up. (And if anyone has a DVD of the anime found in the above link, can you please let me borrow it? Please??)
I have too much fun listening to the intro to this. It brings back memories...*sniffle* Oh what a moving experience!! T^T

2 Listen @ 11:17 PM

i really dont have naything to talk about. wait yes i do. i need to talk about my youth group. ariel and kauany should know about urban adventure and mikey. well. in north carolina i find out that the reason he "liked me" one day and ignored me the next was a sick joke amongst the rest of my youth group. they were all against me.they all called me a dog, mikey's dog. b.c apparently i followed him. so basically i find out that my youth group talk trash behind my back and make me a joke for their own entertainment. and i had to see mikey agian today and he's like cracking all these sex jokes about me. and i was on my knees mulching today and hes like yeah ur on ur knees a lot arent you beth? and laughed it off liek it was funny. and kyle called a rock poser b/c i dont go to warped tour and i say i do and that i dont listen to the band on the band tee im wearing when ive said that ive wanted to got to warped tour but i havent had the chance to go and that my band tee is my cousins shirt that she left at my house when she was here. and it really ticked me off. Like i can't already trust a lot of people in my youth groupo and then that crap. now i understand why they did that. i know that kyle likes me and has asked me out about 10 times in 3 days but ill never date =him. i ahve my reasons. he's too immature and hurts my feelings a lot.
I just wanted to punch someone. i really did. i was so mad. and tyson was nice about it he knows when i'm really upset and tell everyone to just stop or shut up and brittany does that too. she's always there to talk to and its so fun around her. okay. i might have to go soon to eat. *waits for mom to say*
anywhoo. for anyone reading this. i have a great sense of humor and i think a lot of comments are funny but dont cross the line with me. and leave e aone when im angry so i can get over it unless u want to talk with me about it. and i mean rant. i dont get over things easily so i like to be alone. 4 more days with my youht group and then grandma and grandpa. i shall update often. dinners ready. love yall.
peace out. a-town.

ps. i like the majority of my youth group. brittany, meredith, ben, tyson, kelsey, lerato, erin, blake *byrce*, kyle, anna, hannah, and paige. everyone else is just WHATEVER. if u know what i mean. which u probably dont.

i have to eat.
for real this time
byeas!!

0 Listen @ 7:42 PM

this is that painting that i did recently...looks alot ickier scanned onto the comp. ohwell. good enough at least i did some kind of artistical stuff..yay

dunno if ya'll can read the words ((Click on it to make it bigger)) but oh well. woohoo a sappy 2 sided heart that i drew...

1 Listen @ 3:11 PM

So its been a few days, and the prisoner is still allowed to keep her earthly possesions. i am going to be punished, the guards assure me constantly, their just taking their sweet time doing it. And don't mistake this for complaining either, i'm just bored. Thought the time indoors is doing wonders for my story.

i'm going to update before i go to Baltimore, i don't care if it kills me. Which is probably will. Moving on.

i've spend the majority of my day cleaning an already spotless house. Why? Because my dad says so and, as you all know, the parental's words are law end of story. So i've swept the floors, done the dishes, started my laundry, and laid around on the couch because he finally had enough of spacy ol' me dragging around the house. i wasn't trying ot be disrespectful, its just that every time i moved something popped or cracked and i just felt old.

Why i always get so down around my birthday; i just feel like such an old fart.

Yeah, i'm bored to tears and over worked wiht no pay. Aside from all that, i thought i'd show you all something a little more lively. These are my Eevees, the ones i bough while in Disney. Cause i'm the only person who would go to Disney and walk away with anime-related stuff. Their all so cute and cuddly i could just die. But thats why i have friends like Kauany who buy me birthday presents that make me sqeal.

Funny story about my Eevees, while we were in Disney i would sleep with all of my plushies (i have an Ewok dubbed Mei-Mei, but Mei-Mei is much to camera shy you see) in the bed and Sam would sleep on the floor. One morning my partner in crime wakes up and went to answer natures call, when she screams. My mom and i were half-asleep, but are now fully awake hopping out of bed in concern and rush over to see whats the matter. Sitting on the toilet is my Umbreon (the black evil looking one, FYi).

No lie.

i'm thinking of naming them (no, i have no life), any suggestions?

And thats all new in Sarah world, back to you John.

♥ [Sarah] ♥

1 Listen @ 11:26 PM

"Home, Sweet Home"

As the blonde from Clueless might say "As if!"

It's all back the usual weekend routine.
Get Up.
Get Dressed.
Finish getting ready.
Dad comes home from jogging.
He gets ready.
Everyone else is ready by now or just about finished.
Dad asks where we're going for lunch.
is agreed by all.
Go to restaurant.
Eat.
Mom makes millions of little comments about how Dad doesn't love her.
Dad says "Oh Anita" and goes back to eating.
Lauren and I ignore it.
Sam doesn't know what's going on.
Then its back in the car.
And off to the movies.
OR.
We take mum and sam home.
Then dad, lauren and I hit the theatre.
Today I saw Pirates for the second time.
Dad hated it.
Lauren "ehhed" it.
Only I enjoyed it, or at least so it appears.
Go Home.
Dad makes his dinner.
I go to my room.
Mum and sam are doing whatever.
Lauren goes either to the basement or to her room.
Dad eats then retreats to the office.
Mum makes dinner for Lauren and Sam.
They eat and the they get ready for bed.
I make my way to the kitchen near 9.
Make dinner most likely of frozen vegetables and Orange juice.
Eat.
Go back upstairs.
Wait for sleep to overcome me.

I believe my days used to be more interesting in West Virginia.
Maybe when school starts, I'll have more to say.
As for now, I have yet to call Ashli.
I have yet to finish Anne Frank. (I'm really dragging this book out)
My room is a shit hole. I keep getting distracted.
I found a box of notes from between Amanda and I when we'd be in math class.
Those were interesting.
I threw them away because they only made me end up pissed off.
I found this little black book inside my suitcase. A diary no less.
With a note inside from Oma saying
"Quit Blogging"

That made me smile and I picked up the phone and began to dial. But before I finished I put it back down.

Lauren and I are only on a surface level of hospitality.
I really don't care anymore though.
I think that's one of my main faults.
I just give up on people.
Come to think of it, I've given up on a lot of people.
There's one for the surveys.
My biggest regrets.

Maybe not my biggest.
because the golden rule in this world is to look out for your friends, family but most of all yourself.
It's a "dog eat dog world" as they say.
And its only getting harder mates.
The way our parents grew up with a sense that they will have the opportunities, is gone.
You make your own luck.
That's the way I look at it at least.
You can pray all you want.
you can do all different kinds of things.
But in the end.
It's you.
If you let your fate rest in someone else's hands.
Well in my book, you're fucking screwed.
People are going to use you then leave you looking disgusting thrown to the side.
And yeah you might be able to stand back up and brush the rat pellets off your clothes.
Then again maybe you won't.
Maybe the mud and god knows what else will dry into your clothes and you'll never be able to recover.

But that's thinking negativly.

we don't want that.

1 Listen @ 9:16 PM

.For some reason or another, that's one quote from the Lion King that really stuck to me. I don't know why... I remember it better in Portuguese, seeing as how I watched it so much when I was little.
Oh to be little again. I would give almost anything to become a child at least for a day.
Yeah sooooo.... I'm back. I guess. I have decided to become a hermit and have a house on my back. Hehe, I'll be like a turtle. That oughta be fun. And the one day that I decide to sign on no one is on. Oh well. Yet another reason why I should get rid of AIM completely.
And if anyone knows how to post up icons, please tell me. I miss being able to post icons at the end of my entries.

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me

*SUPER SPECIAL SIDE NOTE: I wonder.... Does anyone ever get paranoid about ranting about their day or their inner troubles? (aka emotions. I hate that word just as much as I hate the word "teenager".)
Just a stupid thought from a stupid person. Stupid drinks all around!!!!

0 Listen @ 7:10 PM

Okays. So you know that comment..on something..Myspace or xanga guestbook that you sent me. In which there was a peice with raquel and jose and what not. Did you reeeeally find it on your iPod. and if so have you deleted it already. and if so. You suck. Peaceage out.

"I'm on this diet...I don't eat anything and when I'm about to pass out I eat a cube of cheese!"

3 Listen @ 4:53 PM