Wednesday, March 14
soi think that im a misleadin person/ i alwas seem to be someone im not and then people think im weird. when im not. and now i feel like ive lost alot of realationships with some people i really cared about bc i wasnt willing to put myself out to be rejected by some guy. and chose my friends over every guy i liked. which in a sense is okay but i think thats y i dont have a boyfirned an every relationship ive had since 8th grade had fizzled. it sux. i mean i love my friends and value them so much but sometimes i wonder if by choosing them all the time, hav i missed out on something good? and now ill never know what it would be like to be billius' hermione or to be with someone. i cant balance my friends and a boyfriend. i want a boyfriend though that really wants me around to be with me. i just feel lonely alway beung at home on the computer wasting my life away. i want something exciting to happen. but as ive said before, if i want it to happen i have to make it happen. im just really stressed from school and drama happening and i want a nice vacation away. parish retreat at camp weed...cannot wait. no parents no brother no ppl from school i can just relax. just what the doctor ordered, right?feedback puhlease
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